StickyTops
In Bloom
Condolences on your loss bro
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Hemp
In Bloom
Sorry to hear that.
Ohwolfie
In Bloom
I love you too man. You know you'll always be my growmie.. Always be a friend, which is rare in this world.. I'm getting by, but this is going to stay with me forever. Until one day I join her.
She seemingly died really peacefully, which was a small relief.. But at least I know she didn't suffer. She was a strong, hard headed woman, but she loved just as hard.
She was suffering with polymyositis, which is incredibly rare, and by the time she was given a pacemaker last June, it was already too late. We didn't know it, but she was on borrowed time. It had spread to her heart.. My dad said over the last few months she could barely walk.
Perspective is a crazy thing. On one hand I can be grateful that she wasn't suffering anymore, but be heartbroken that she's gone. There were some spiritual things that happened after she died as well that were trippy but maybe I'll tell you in DM.
Or if other members want to hear about it, I'll post it here.
Hemp
In Bloom
I have seen you around for several years not sure if we really had any interaction on OG. I did have someone ask about you the other day on ICM. I wasn’t gonna say anything else. But I can say if you said things were peaceful for her I’m happy for that. I lost my grandmother. She was my mother and my heart she suffered. Myself I’m having problems. It is tough to lose a loved one. I wish you the best you and your family.
I noticed your last comment. I was so scared the first time I had my surgery. I found out you will always open your eyes.
One Love!
I noticed your last comment. I was so scared the first time I had my surgery. I found out you will always open your eyes.
One Love!
Ohwolfie
In Bloom
Firstly, my condolences for your loss. I too had a grandmother that was like a mother to me. Second, it's nice to meet you. I've been around a few forums for several years, but don't always consistently post.
Looking back, it felt like I had two mothers. My birth mother who I lived with (with my dad), and my dad's mom Elaine, who I stayed with (along with my grandpa) in the Summer and school breaks. My grandma and I were like two peas in a pod. She'd tell me stories about her childhood (how she shoved a girl's head in the toilet for calling her mom disgusting for being pregnant, how she first met grandpa at the theater and turned him down). I'd just sit and listen to her talk. She spoiled the shit out of me. She always said that I was her baby. She spoiled everyone, took care of everyone, but I was her favorite, which still makes me very proud. I loved her sooooo very much. I miss her terribly. She's been gone almost 10 years..
My mom and my relationship was difficult, complicated, and strained at times. We were just two different people. I loved her dearly as well, but rather than being smooth sailing like grandma, my mom and I had some turbulence. But we were in a good place when she died. I was not my mom's favorite son. My brother was, and that's okay. They connected on more levels than my mom and I did. My grandmother was well aware of that, and just spoiled me more.
I've been having a vision lately, about wanting my mom and my grandmother to greet me on the other side one day. I have loved and lost many friends and family members along this journey that we call life. But those two women were the foundation to who I am today. For totally different reasons.
And to your last point, you're right.. You WILL always open your eyes..We are eternal. As Optimus Prime said in Transformers, Til All Are One..The truth is all around us.
ONE LOVE.
