I had a fight tonight with a family member and it turned physical... They did something in my mind that I can never forgive and they can never take back. How can I forgive this person? Remember they're family and I have to see them every day. They're sorry and feel bad but that doesn't take back what they did. They could of killed me - yes, it got that physical and I don't want to go into detail. How should I handle this? How can I forgive for such a transgression? What was done to me I'd never in a million years do the same to them, I'm in just utter shock. Sorry guys this is some heavy shit i'm unpacking on you all..
I just need to vent, there's no one else I can talk to about this. If I forgive I feel like a door mat that will get stepped on over and over again. I feel if I forgive them easily they'll eventually do it again.
I think the best course of action is to keep my distance and not speak to this person... I'm still very angry and not only mentally hurt but I'm physically hurt too. Part of me wants to take revenge, but in the end I'm not sure it would make me feel any better. Like I said what they did to me can't be taken back. The word "Sorry" literally means nothing to me after what transpired. When we were fighting (more like being attacked) I didn't see family, I seen a monster who could of killed me. They showed their true colors. There's no going back from this, no matter the "I'm Sorries" - silence will speak for me from here on out until I reach that point of forgiveness (if I ever reach that point).. Oh man, if you guys only knew! 🤦♂️
I know bro already said it, but Forgive. Forgive, move on, and don't look back. Now, if you don't speak to them, at all, and end up watching yourself around them, they may see that at some point. I have family that are blood related I don't talk to at all. And we used to be really close.
Of course I've totally overlooked my cousin shooting me in the side with a pellet gun, and I had to cut that out with a big knife, but, I also shot him point blank in the ass with the same one. It was hilarious. We literally used to hold "The Bastard Olympics" at one point, where the idea was to fuck with each other as much as possible. Faking a police chase with a his buddy, me prank calling one of his friends and pretending to be a video store manager saying his son was caught stealing gay porn, and a LOT more. I don't do that stuff these days. I'd rather not be like that. A cousin of mine that used to be REALLY close with me, hasn't seen or spoken to me, in like.... 10 years or so.
He was engaged to this girl, and she was awesome. Like total Wife material. Super nice, dealt with my sense of humor, and his, and would go out of her way to help. He ended up cheating on her, and when he told her he was breaking up with her, as she was in tears walking out with her stuff, he literally stopped her, and made her give him back the all the rings and jewelry he had ever bought her. I couldn't even deal with him. I wanted to beat his ass. It was beyond cold blooded, and she deserved better. I'm still friends with her and her sister, though we don't talk much, but I haven't seen or spoken to him in like a decade. He doesn't try, and neither do I. I'm not mad anymore, but I won't just reach out either.
I did have a cousin swing a baseball bat at me once when we were younger. I remember being so pissed he tried that when he was swinging it at me, I punched the bat out of his hands so hard he literally cried from the vibration. I think it was a metal bat so, that would likely be why it hurt him more than me.
Blood relatives can cause a lot of damage, because we all act like they can't. At the end of the day; We have family that aren't actually related, and sometimes enemies that are, and how we act, can change that. The cousin I shot in the ass doesn't care, anymore than I do about him taking that first shot. We still see each other now and then, and we're fine. You have to be sure they were actually trying to cause you massive harm though; because there's every chance something else was going on, and either way, once you move passed that, or through it, depending on where you take it, either way, it's up to you. Once you forgive them though, and some time passes, you'll feel a lot better than if you spend that time trying to get back at them. That won't ever work, or bring you peace.